tagging threes

Three things you wish for (just for you):

1. I wish that I didn’t have chronic physical ailments (and I feel guilty for even saying that, because I know there are so many others out there in this world that have much worse physical problems/illnesses than mine…BUT this is supposed to be wishes just for me, so there it is).
2. I wish I had enough money to pay for my doctorate program for the next 4 years, to avoid going into 100+ grand of debt.
3. I wish I didn’t have so much anxiety and so many fears.

Three things you would do to/for you if there was no one to judge you (or if you had the guts.)

1. Get a tattoo (my mama would be VERY disappointed…and I know, it is my body and my life, but I do love and respect my mama very much, so for now, no tattoos…though I may get the guts for this one day, so here’s your warning sweet mama).
2. Write the autobiograhpy of my life and try to publish it (this is something I would love to do, but fear keeps me from doing it at this point, at least while the grandparents are still living).
3. Have nude photographs taken (this would be for me, and me only…I just think that women have so many issues with their bodies, and what better way to embrace the beauty of one’s own body than by having the courage to bare it in front of a camera…and NO mama and daddy, this does NOT mean I want to be a porn star:)

Three bad habits you have.

1. smoking
2. my addiction to the sun
3. I am a total slob…though I am making plans for change with this one (and hopefully will find the willpower to change the other two before long…we shall see).

Three insecurities you feel:

1. That I will disappoint others, as I have often done (I’m working on this as well…trying to learn how to be okay with other’s disappointments in me and focusing on meeting my own expectations for myself instead).
2. That I will not be able to touch others’ lives in the inspiring and healing way that I want.
3. That I'm not good enough to be a "Writer." – I’m stealing this one from Meg.

Three talents/skills you wish you had:

1. ART, ART, ART…I wish I could draw, paint, sculpt, make beautiful collages, etc. (I took art lessons when I was about 10 years old and actually did some decent work…perhaps the ability is in there somewhere and I just have kept it in hiding? I hope this is the case…my soul is filled with artistic and creative drives…now if only I can make the drives manifest).
2. The ability to play the guitar (I also attempted guitar lessons once, but I really sucked and never could manage to make my tiny hands make any beautiful music).
3. The willpower to live a really healthy life (i.e. exercising regularly, stopping smoking, eating organic, cooking healthy meals, etc…I’m not really sure if you could call this a talent or skill, but I certainly believe it takes talent to live this way).

Three things you would do if you had more time:

1. Write more.
2. Teach myself to sew.
3. Spend more time with my friends and family.

Three things you would do if you had enough money:

1. Stop working so much (I would still work, but maybe I would stop until I could finish school…or at least only work one job).
2. Pay off all my debt and give my parents enough money to happily retire (though I’m sure they would continue working…most of my family has some workaholic tendencies:)
3. Travel, travel, travel…to every state in the USA (that I haven’t already seen, and some I have), to Italy, to England, to Africa, to France, to Spain, to Greece, any many other places. And of course, I would want to come see all of my wonderful blogging friends during my travels!

Three things that bring you peace and relaxation:

1. the beach
2. the mountains
3. reading and writing (sorry, this is actually 4)

Three things that spark your creativity:
1. Reading
2. Nature
3. Art and Music (I know…it’s 4 again)

Three people I'm tagging:

I know some people really don’t like to do these tags, so feel free to accept the invitation or not. I am tagging Tammy, Baylor, and Frankie.